sigh. i dont know why i get what i get. this feeling inside me just doesnt want to go away. yes, everyone has their ups and downs. but mine is constantly down. well, most of the time down. its just there. something out there is triggering it. i think its just me who is the weird ass one. i feel like im so fucked up at times. nothing helps anymore.

weird. i hate it. screw it.

tomorrow nutrition exam and F&B presentation. prepared for F&B but not for nutrition. i hate science. it sucks. im just scared of failing my term 2. i mean, i wouldnt want to waste my time and retake term 2 again. no way. im studying as hard as i can now. slacking is out of the question. shit.

i hate me. i am going out of my mind.

rick.